To be used in a context similar to, “I was having this kind of moment where I realized…”
I think we all have these moments where we pause and take stock in the larger picture, kind of mentally look up from the tasks at hand and take a look around. In these moments and realize one of two things, either, “Wow, I’m a bit lost as to how the hell I got here or how to get away from here as fast as possible, but I need to start doing that.” Or there is a flash of, “I’m really happy with how things are going. I hadn’t stopped to notice, but things really are really going well and I think I can see some reasons why.”
I had one of the latter experiences recently and it was this moment of zen where I realized that things are going well. I’m fairly content with much of what is happening in my life and where things are going. Over the past handful years I’ve done a lot of growing and learning about myself. Learning generally stems from challenging what you think. Many challenges are presented when life seems to be an unending shitstorm… with extra shit. But last year in particular has been different. I took a much more active stance in how I deal with stress, decisions, other people and most importantly, myself.
My goal is to have more moments with myself, good or bad, to come up for air and get my bearings. It’s silly to look back on the past year and think, I’ve been doing pretty damn well but never really saw it till now. Not to say I didn’t enjoy the year and that I grew and learned and all that jazz. It would have just provided me a little more perspective had I done better at checking in on myself and taking stock. Being self-aware is one of the really great perks of being human, it’s just something to keep in mind before blundering along and not taking a moment to pause and think about something.