Guy: Hey there
Me: Hi, how are you doing?
Guy: Good
Me: …
Me: Good to hear.
This really happens in gay social networking. Guys will totally break the ice and then expect me to carry the ball. Bitch, you approached me! Don’t be shocked if I expect you to have a small amount of responsibility for your end of a conversation.
I’m curious to know if this happens outside the gay community too.
Party A to Party B: “Hey there, I’m going to sit with you and you can show me everything you do…”
Observer C: “That won’t take long.”
Every November I try posting all month. Made it longer this month than before. Still I will try to keep it up the rest of the month.
Sorry this shit isn’t as introspective or intelligent as my normal fare, but that takes a lot of time and energy. As a result, it almost never gets done. So I’m going to pepper in some coarse off-the-cuff stuff more often. Besides, heavy servings can really weigh you down.
My mood has been much improved today. I can’t even believe how much better I feel compared to last week. Last week, I felt as though I was slipping further into the grips of depression but the tide appears to have turned. I wish I could say what the ultimate catalyst was to get me back on my feet, that seems to remain a mystery. What I do know is that I’m very thankful for my friends who helped me through this with their support and just by being around. Good friends have always been the most important aspect in helping me deal with depression.
I find that as I come back to the surface I have to get my house back in order, quite literally as it so happens. Every time this happens the chores seem to slip day by day until the piles of laundry have reached the ceiling and the dishes are stacked next to the sink instead of in the cupboard. Part of me finds it frustrating to have to catch up like this, but at the same time I find it’s also very therapeutic to dig myself out of the pit and get back to having a normal life.
It was was a good day today. I didn’t really do much of anything, I just sat at home. In fact, I slept in until probably noon. I really needed it. After I got up I spent some time watching television and then I went out for dinner which had been previously been arranged. I felt bad because I received an invitation to go spend time with some friends who were working on a project. I declined to take them up on it, because it just wasn’t feeling up for it.
So far this weekend has proven to be exactly what I needed to be, a time of rest. Tomorrow if I’m feeling industrious I may just decide to tackle the dishes in the kitchen or the laundry or any number of other disasters that are currently present in my home. I find keeping a clean house really helps improve my state of mind, and everyone knows I could use much of that as I can get.